April 16, 2007: I was in Olympia and Pat was there and we had Lupita in a cat carrier that Pat left open outside, and I was trying not to overreact but I had warned him not to do that. He did, and I had to chase after Lupita. My mom was there and I wondered if she would be there during my whole trip and I hoped she wouldn't. I wasn't entirely sure why she was there, either.
April 19, 2007: I saw George Clooney take a running jump into a pool because his mother was in it. He was wearing loose shorts with no underwear and had great legs. When he got close to his mother it was like I was viewing a close-up. I could see his face and her face and he was very glad to see her.
April 21, 2007: I missed class, or class was cancelled; either way, I missed it!
April 28, 2007: There was a big hall with a projected movie playing and lots of rows of tables with people sitting at them. I was sitting with Geoff and he was being very forward, so much so that I was worried about what other people would think. He put his arm around me, nuzzled my ear. As I was leaving this theater, hoping he would follow me out, Nikki C. came scrambling out, totally excited and wanting to confirm what she saw, and I had to admit affirmatively without saying outright what was going on.
May 1, 2007: My mother looked how she looked at about the age of 35 or 40. I found her in my childhood bedroom, passed out drunk. On my way in, I'd found an empty bottle of wine. I started shaking her, smacking her and using the dead weight of her arms and hands to smack her own face.
May 2, 2007: I was with Katie, Sarah and all the husbands, and Katie and Sarah went off together for hours. When they returned, I decided that I'd had it, the time was supposed to be spent together, and since it was not, I was leaving. The rental car we had was somewhere inaccessible, so I just started walking away from all of them, including Stephen. I was walking down unfamiliar streets, and I was angry. Once in awhile Stephen or one of the others would catch up with me but I wouldn't speak to them, I was so livid. Sarah tried to talk to me but I blasted back in anger. She responded in a perturbed and indignant way and then fell away from me as I walked. I was thinking about how I could possibly be ruining my friendship with her forever and how I would have to live with the pain in the days to come.
I saw a wall with loads of ants on it. I tried to clean the wall with a simple sponge and bleach but that didn't work. There were areas by the floor where the wall was black and looked like it was moving, it was so full of ants. I found a spray and kept the cats back while I sprayed the walls. I was kind of messy about it, but the ants stopped moving, so I know it was working. I knew I had to wipe down the walls where the dead ones were stuck.
May 5, 2007: I was supposed to marry Stephen the next day but for some reason I engaged in a long embellished fantasy with Kevin H. (as a child) that it would be he and I who would be marrying the next day, and his mother even believed it. The invitations did not list a time to arrive, and some guests thought it would be 10am, when really I wanted it to be 4:15pm.
Later, I was in a tremendous swimming pool (in a dusty desert area?), with many people in and around it, people from elementary school, maybe high school, too. I was in the deep end, the other side from where most everyone was, palling around with Howie. There seemed to be a photo shoot happening. Someone put on a costume pretending to be what looked like a sea monster or dragon, and I laughed and told Howie that previously in dreams this would have scared me--I was always having dreams about creatures like alligators or sea monsters and she expressed surprise and laughter--"Really?" she asked. I laughed and told her yes. Awhile later I noticed that the shoot was over and the pool was drained. I marvelled aloud that they'd drained the pool pretty fast. We got up to leave and move on with the crowd.
