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I was over 12 weeks pregnant. I had become pregnant via saliva or some other liquid, and I was shocked at how easy it happened. Once the news sunk in, I noticed that I was showing--my belly was protruding and I looked at in the mirror and my heart sunk. I suddenly realized how much I did not want to be pregnant, and I kept counting the months until when it would be due. When I thought of the pain involved, I felt incredibly depressed and it struck me just how not ready I was for this kind of change, and this kind of pain.