clothespin

Post-exercise assessment: knees and shoulders the same, sacroiliac throbbing. Took ibuprofen for the first time in a long time, and it was only slightly helpful. I'm afraid I'm going to have to go back to the doc again and get a script for more PT. Afraid of what the doc and the therapists will think about this woman who can't stop complaining. I'm angry that I even consider their opinions outside of what they think will ameliorate the pain.

And afraid of future pain. I hate the word chronic, the plosive K sounds on either end implying finality that doesn't exist. But the pain does exist, like a N hummed discordantly in my ear. The hurt is a constant static, punctuated by O and I moments. What the hell am I talking about? I'm just trying to say something other than PAIN because as I'm tired of that word as I am of what it represents.